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[gategrrl]

I think this'll be the last thing I'll post about Goldy; otherwise I'm going to be seen as milking it, and I'm not. Things'll be fine, and then, we'll order pizza and we have to remember not to put a crust down in a nonexistent bowl on the floor for him; or if I take the chicken pieces out of a Trader Joe's salad there's no dog to give it to. It's the little things that hurt the most. Or I'll swing my hand down where he usually would lie down near me, and realize too late that he's not there to pay attention to.

Going to Pet Orphans over the past week has helped, I guess. It's helped Mermiad more than me, I think. She'd get very anxious and upset at me if she even thought I was trying to delay her going there to hug, pet and cuddle the dogs there (and oh my, some really really cute dogs there I'd take home in a minute, if I really felt I/we could handle another dog right now).

Thanks for bearing with me.

Comments

[superbadgirl]

Don't apologize - there's no set time limit to this. Goldy was a part of your life for many years. Of course it's going to take a while, and I dare say none of your flist would begrudge you those moments. Sharing here probably helps a little, too, so I'm all for it.

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

Thanks, SBG. I appreciate it. At least I have your kitty stories to get a laugh from. Figures you'd get cats with personalities, eh? And I mean, big personalities!

[affinity8.livejournal.com]

Lovely graphic.

It took at least 3 years before I stopped grieving my cat who died in Dec 2005 - every Friday I would remember, because I had to put him to sleep on a Friday night.

You're not milking it - grief must run its course.

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

It took me a looooong time to get over my first, bestest dog's death back when I was 19. We'd had him from puppyhood, and he was 13 years old. I still miss him, & I wonder if part of my grief over Goldy is because I never completely finished with Terhune (the earlier dog).

Either way, I'm going to miss Goldy for a while, too. :(

[ldyanne.livejournal.com]

It's what we're here for. You take all the time you need. Goldy was a part of your life for so long, you take the time you need to to remember and celebrate him.

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

Thanks, LadyAnne.

I hope things are going okay on your end.

Heh, if you want (take a look at the pictures in the next entry from 6/21), give me a list of things you'd like on a page, what size (if you want to print it out) and a saying or motto or quote you'd like on it. I'll see what I can come up with. Think of it as a gift.

[ldyanne.livejournal.com]

That's so lovely. You don't have to, but... my favorite saying is Dance Like Nobody's Watching with dancers and dance related items. I'm not really much of a dancer anymore, but ren fest dancing used to be my favorite thing!

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

You got it!

I'll do my best. I might even do more than one. ;)

[ldyanne.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I'm going to love whatever you put together!

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

We're all here for you. Grief doesn't vanish overnight. Talk to us when you need to.

I still miss my Kero who died in February, often when I least expect it.

::HUGS:: It just takes time.

[gategrrl.livejournal.com]

Isn't that the worst?! You're doing something ordinary, and then BAM* it hits you. A detail of life will pop out at you, and you're right back there again. My husband's already had dreams with Goldy in them. I haven't, that I can remember.

And I'm so glad a new cat entered your life. It almost sounded planned, but I know it wasn't, from what you wrote. They find us.

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

For me, it's still bad at night because Kero slept with me, head on the pillow, my arm wrapped around him. It used to be bad in the morning, too, because he was waiting for me when I got up. Jasper is there now in the mornings, and he's made it a little easier.

::HUGS:: I hope things get easier for you with time, too.